OH how I hate crutches. My heart goes out to all those who have to use those darn things. Last week, July 16th at karate I hurt my foot/ankle pretty bad while sparring. Went to the doctor the next day and they relieved my mind telling me my foot wasn't broken. However, the news they did give me wasn't really good either. I had torn ligaments in the top of my foot and around my ankle. They put me in a splint and gave me crutches and sent me on my merry way. I work upstairs....I live upstairs.....crutches WE'RE NOT MADE FOR STAIRS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was going to miss out on all the fun stuff - softball, karate, etc. But, complaining wasn't going to change anything really so with the help of my best friend and my family, I made it through. All this time though, I kept praying that the Lord would heal me. I believe God at ALL of His word and I wasn't understanding why the Lord wouldn't heal me.
Saturday morning I was so frustrated with my condition. My arms were sore, my back was sore, my foot just ached. I cried out to God "Why won't you heal me??" And He actually answered - " How can I when you keep putting the brace back on?" "Oh" I said (yeah...full of comments now I am.....). "Take a step and know, KNOW IN YOUR HEART not just your mind that I am your healer." So, I did. I took it all off...I as I was about to step down on my bad foot, I caught myself still expecting the pain "I'm sorry Lord" I said "I really want to have the faith...." My foot didn't hurt. I took another step...no pain. :) I realized just then that yes, out Lord is a healer. He does so not just to make us feel better, but to bring Him glory and for the building up in the believers and to bring in the un-believers. Hallelujah! Thank you Lord for touching me and making me whole again!
I saw one of my softball team mates the next day. He asked about my foot (cause Friday night at the game I was on crutches now, I'm totally walking normal). He's not a Christian however, his wife and other family members are. He asked e "How are you so special that God would heal you and not all the other sad people dying of cancer?" I told him, "I'm just as special as they are in the Lord's eyes. I don't know why God chose to heal me but I do know that He did and I'm to proclaim it wherever I go." He looked at me with disbelieve but, I know in my heart what the Lord did. I didn't have answers to why God doesn't heal everyone, and I never will. But I do know this, that God is a healer and our situations don't change who God is. We may never understand why He does certain things, but He is God Almighty and it IS for us to trust Him.
So I write this blog as a testament to God's greatness and to encourage all who read it - don't try to figure God out, cause you won't. But trust in His word and know the our Lord is the same yesterday, today and forever. All those promises in there are for us and for today. He is a mighty MIGHTY God.